Why my life is good?

D & I have been listening to this series of cd's by a couple guys in AA that I got him for Christmas. They were talking about resentments and about how if you just can't get rid of a resentment that you should pray for the that person, pray they get everything in life that you always wanted. Supposedly if you do this your whole attitude will change and you'll lose the resentment. I've never tried it.
I'm just wondering who has a resentment against me, that could be why my life is so good these days, right? Someone is praying that I get everything they've always wanted!

Which way is she spinning?

I only see clockwise, no matter how hard I try.

He's not quite dead

Nothing like spending two days thinking the one you love is about to be handed a death sentence.....

It turns out that, yes, D has beginning stage cirrhosis, however he's being referred not because he needs a transplant but because his Dr. wants him to have the best possible care, especially given his fear of treatment.
The Dr. did say that from 2001-2003 there was virtually no progression of his disease but there was progression from 2003 to now and that we missed a window of opportunity by delaying treatment. Those who've been reading this blog since it's inception will probably concur that we made the best choice we could at the time, given all that was going on in our lives. Now is a much more calm and stable time for us. We both have amazing support groups and fantastic employers. We have virtually no stress, we can handle this, together.

a living nightmare

yesterday afternoon D's Dr's office called
he has cirrhosis and they are referring him to a new Dr.
she is a transplant specialist
tomorrow at 4:30 we will be meeting with his current Dr. to find out just what the fuck is going on

Not good enough for Canada

Apparently the US/Canada border patrols/customs officials are sharing information and now Canada is denying access to many Americans with any sort of criminal history, no matter how long ago it was. You can apply to be "deemed redeemed" for a mere $200.
Since I had a DWI in 1986 (I was 18) I do not qualify to visit Canada.
Fortunately my soapmaking friends rock and the one we were going to hook up with in Vancouver is now going to fly into Seattle, which is where we were going to be staying anyway.

I did tell ya'll that D and I are going to Seattle in July to hook up with a group of my soapmaking friends? And then going on a cruise to Alaska, didn't I? The cruise makes one stop in Canada but I guess we won't be getting off the boat!

Why I love her

The following is an email exchange between me & N's girlfriend:


From: me
To: her
Subject: RE: Insurance
Date: Tue, 25 Mar 2008 14:14:27 -0500

we can cancel N at any time but the price is the same for employee plus children whether it's only 1 child or 40 children so don't cancel her on our account, we plan on keeping it anyway, at least until D jr has insurance, gets married, turns 25 or really pisses us off.

From: her
To: me
Subject: RE: Insurance
Date: Tue, 25 Mar 2008 14:20:50

Jeopardy scenario:

Yes Alex, can I have "D jr will piss you off first" for $500 please?

I do care

A few years ago, D & I decided to not decorate for Christmas, not have a big meal and go to the movies instead. It was my most depressing Christmas ever (ok, 2nd most depressing, the first most was the year my stepdad died and my sister in law decided to be a total cunt to my mom and sister)
Anyway, we didn't plan anything for Easter. So, I woke up and the Easter Bunny hadn't been here. I tried to go shoe shopping and all the stores were closes. It was really getting me down.
So, we went to Albertson's and loaded up the cart with all the fixin's for Easter dinner and some malted milk eggs. N and her girlfriend and D jr and his girlfriend will be here in a few hours and we'll have Easter and I feel so much better now!

Kids do the damdest things!

Tonight was my N's birthday party. The whole family was there and we had a lot of fun. Right when it was time to leave I saw my 4 yr old grandson, looking glum and wet. I walked up and asked what was wrong.
Well, lemme tell ya

His cousin double dog dared him to stick his head in the toilet AFTER HE PEED IN IT!
There was some talk, too, about drinking it, but I'm unclear as to whether that actually happened and I really don't even want to know. Poor kid, he was in trouble and had a wet pee head. His pawpaw and I had a hard time hiding our laughter. Being the grandparent is a lot more fun than being the parent at times like these!

two steps forward, 100 steps back

N is having a party tomorrow night for her 21st birthday. She and her girlfriend put a ton of work into it, even sent out invitations in the mail (something that isn't done very often anymore). So, her mother has decided she just can't stand to be there while D & I are there. Apparently all the progress we thought we'd made with her was an illusion. Turns out she STILL disses D every fucking time she sees her kids. It's insane. Lady, you've been divorced 11 years, you've been with someone else for 10.75 of those years. GET OVER IT. For the love of GOD!
She's making a huge stink about it and basically stressing N out. Nice birthday present, bitch.

What's a girl to do?

On the one hand, Prozac seems to be helping my gut and it is certainly helping with the nightly "oh fuck, someday I'm going to die, what will happen, what's it going to be like? I'm just going to cease to exist" brain frying that I've been experiencing for the last few years.
On the other hand, I've gained 10 pounds since I've been on it.

Tough choice, and of course, being vain, I'm choosing to quit Prozac.

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Forty isn't loud enough

Yesterday on the way in to work I realized that I had the stereo in my car cranked all the way up (Level 40) and it just wasn't loud enough. I can not count the number of times I've listened to the Violent Femmes, from the times Sonja Gossett used to play it over and over and over while we smoked cloves at the Clown Ramp to now, I've never grown tired of it.

What's your all time favorite album?

What makes me really, really happy

My grandson's just came by to see papa and bring mimi her birthday gift. They helped their mom make a collage, using a doily David's stepmom had crocheted as the background and tons of pics of all my grandkids (including Nickie & Sharla's fur kids). They both sat beside me and hugged me and said "oh mimi, open your present, we helped mom, you're going to love it" and were just such sweet boys. They love me and it's the most wonderful feeling i the world. I can't even describe what a blessing it is to have them in my life. There is no "step" in their eyes!
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Maybe I should have kept it a secret

We all went to the Texas Roadhouse for dinner. I got there after everyone else and didn't think anything of it. But....when dinner was finished the waiters all came over and made me get on a saddle they had mounted on a piece of wood, then they put a giant coffee filter on my head, two cone shaped paper cups on my mouth and two to-go containers on in my hands and I had to pretend to be a bird and flap the to-go containers while they sang.

all that and I didn't even get a free piece of cake

I am cursed

I was having a lovely day at the spa for my birthday today. The facial and massage left me feeling pampered and refreshed. The water with cucumber and lemon slices was delicious, the strawberry birthday tart with a candle just perfect.
I let my guard down.....big mistake

next up mani/pedi with the manicurist from hell

I was being chatty and mentioned that D had been ill and when she asked what with and I told her she proceeded to tell me how her mother just died during Interferon treatments and that David was sure to die!
She went on to tell me all about how she and her mother went on a cruise before she started treatments and got drunk and stoned and stayed that way for a week (sure am glad they weren't MY tablemates)
No wonder your mother died, you can NOT drink with this condition, you just can't. She then told me all about how she's going to Mexico next week for a tummy tuck/lipo/breast lift and she said "save your husband's pain medicine, I'm going to need it"

I'm not the only Democrat in Texas!

either that or the long line out the door of people waiting to vote were just there to vote for Hillary as apparently Rush encouraged Republicans to do. The poor volunteers on the Republican side were bored and lonely

The line of people waiting to caucus was HUGE!!! We, unfortunately, did not stay to caucus (Texas has a two part, very confusing to everyone, system, first you vote in the primary, that counts for 2/3 of the delegates, then, after the polls close, they hold the caucus and that's the other 1/3)
D wasn't feeling well after waiting an hour in line to vote so we didn't stay.

Kick me while I'm down

I'm about to turn 40 and I'm not to happy about it. So, when I walked up to our AA group yesterday and a member said "wow, haven't seen you in awhile, you look old"I almost started to cry.
But you know what? FUCK HIM
D still thinks I'm beautiful